Month: August 2009

Marred Clay and the Perfect Vessel

It was early 1977.  I was a student at Oak Harbor High School in Northwest Ohio and I remember this event without straining any of my 1970’s  damaged brain cells.  It was a Thursday afternoon and I was stuck right in the middle of art class.  That’s right….I said art class.   I finally admit publicly that I took art in high school.

Why I remember this so clearly is because I remember the music playing in class.  Mrs. Cherry was the art teacher.  She was young and made art fun.  More importantly, she played music in her class.  This day we were listening to “Wings Over America” by Paul McCartney and Wings.

Now… I would love to tell you that I was a good artist.   Also, I would love to tell you that I took the class to become a better artist.  But neither one of those reasons would be true.  I took art class for the same reasons that motivates almost every other 16 year old male to do anything in High School… it was an easy “A” and for the girls.

It really came down to simple logic.  In 1977, I was 5’4″ and 105 lbs.  Football was not an option.  So, I ran cross country.   Obviously that was not going to help my reputation with the ladies.  I took Choir, in the hope that I could somehow sing my way into the heart of a pretty girl (and the easy “A”).   Those of you that have ever sat next to me in church know the unfortunate ending to my choir endeavor.  Then I remembered that way back in the fifth grade I had won first place at the Ottawa County Fair for a pencil drawing.  “That’s it!!!”, I told myself as I scheduled my classes that year.  I would take art.  I mean how hard could it be?  It was an easy “A”, you get to draw, listen to music and of course there would be girls in the class.  Girls like art don’t they?

The start of that first semester went alright.  Every afternoon I got to draw, paint,  do calligraphy and most of all, listen to music and try to impress the ladies.  However, something changed drastically one day.  Instead of walking into class looking at a blank sheet of paper, there was a lump of clay on my desk.  Apart from playing with Play-Doh when I was a kid, about the only thing I had ever remotely done with clay was when my buddies and me made mud balls and threw them at each other.  But this was something new.  I thought to myself, “I could really get into this.  This might be something I may really be good at.”

The ideas were just flowing and my creative juices were at an all time high.  The possibilities were endless.  The concept is very simple.  Take a lump of clay and shape it and mold it into something beautiful.  Maybe a perfectly shaped vase or cup, maybe even something abstract that would be cool to have on my book shelf at home.   Mrs. Cherry was up in front of the class giving instructions, but I did not have time for that. This was what I was waiting for. This would be my opportunity to  do something great, something that just came naturally to me.

So I indeed did what came natural to me…I took that clay and rolled it out on my desk.  Visions of my finished project was so clear to me and I made a great master piece with that clay that day.  Surely, Mrs. Cherry would be impressed by my perfect clay sculpture sitting on my desk.  I was real proud.  It had taken a mere 45 seconds to create the perfect ash tray.

Now the interesting thing is that I have never smoked, more importantly, no one in my family smoked.  Why an ash tray…I don’t have a clue.  But when you think about it, this class is an easy “A” and taking anymore time than that to make something else would interrupt my time listening to music and trying to impress the girls in the class.

I sat at my desk just admiring my handiwork.  “You know, this pottery stuff is easy and I am good at it”, I thought to myself.  I finally found something that I was good at. With my perfect ash tray sitting on the corner of my desk, I looked around the room and took pride in the fact that I was the first one done.  What could possibly be taking the other students so long?  They were working and kneading the clay with their hands.  Picking it up and slamming it down on the desk.  I mean they were really working the clay, pressing down and working their hands into the clay.  It really took them a long time to make their creations.  I was just about to tell them they were doing it wrong when Mrs. Cherry told us to take our work and place it in the closet.  We were going to let them dry and harden over night and then glaze and fire them the next day.

I hurried into class on Friday.  I could not wait until I would get to my perfect ash tray and start the process of glazing it and then firing it to get the finished product.  I had picked out the perfect glaze for my ash tray.  Black Metallic.  It would be so cool when it was done.  I put an extra heavy coat of the glaze on my wonderful piece of art.  Something this perfect needed a little something extra and that did the trick.  As I walked with my creation towards the kiln for it to  be fired, Mrs. Cherry reminded us that our final grade depended on the outcome of the firing process.  I stopped in my tracks.  “What did she just say?” flashed through my mind.  She continued,  “Remember from class yesterday when I said that any imperfection in the clay like air bubbles, small pieces of dirt or too much glaze would cause the clay to crack and be destroyed in the firing process.”  What?  I hadn’t heard that!!!  I looked down at my project and thought that something that looked this good could not possibly be “marred” by invisible imperfections.  I placed my handiwork in the kiln confident that all would be fine.

On Monday, I walked into class with the full expectation that my little creation would be done.  I walked over to the kiln and watched as other students pulled their projects from the oven.  I was just about ready to reach down into the kiln when Mrs. Cherry said, “Don’t bother.”  I looked up and she was holding scraps of what was once my perfect ashtray.  It had indeed exploded in the firing process.  My project was a complete failure.  She started to explain to me that I had not properly worked the clay.  My lump of clay was filled with tiny air bubbles that needed to be worked out the clay.  That is done by slamming the clay down on the desk and forcing the air out of the clay.  Also, I needed to spend time working the clay with my hands to ensure that all small pieces of dirt or stones would be worked out of the clay.  If any of these imperfections were hidden in the clay it would not survive the firing process.  My project was now “Exhibit A” for the rest of the class.  Instead of gaining attention as a result of my beautiful masterpiece, I was now the center of attention for what not to do.

Over thirty years later when I run into people who were in that class with me, they bring up this event.  But not all of it is a bad experience, for as a result, I learned some valuable lessons from this failure.

The origins of the potter’s wheel and the art of pottery are lost in history, but it is known that both the potter and his craft were around in Biblical times.  The Bible contains several verses in several different books and passages that relate to the potter and his clay.  Used as metaphorical illustrations the “pottery passages” in the Bible are used to show the reader something about man’s relationship with God. Isaiah 64:8 (NIV) states, “O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, You are the Potter; we are all the work of your hand.”

The prophet Jeremiah was told by God: “Arise, and go ye to the potter’s house and there I will cause thee to hear my words. Then I went down to the potter’s house, and, behold; he wrought a work on the wheels. And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hands of the potter; so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make it.” Note that when Jeremiah stated that when the potter thought the clay was marred, the potter started over and made a new vessel.  The potter knew that the marred clay would never make a good pot, so he reworked it, re-wedged it and tried again.

We are like the potter’s clay.  God created man in His own image and the first work of human “pottery”, Adam, sinned.  God’s work was marred.  Unfortunately, all of the offspring of this first lump of clay inherited the same marred nature.  ”Wherefore, as by one man (Adam) sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for all have sinned.”(Romans5: 12)

We are like marred lumps of clay because we have all inherited that sin “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)  The sin in our lives are like the air bubbles, sticks and stones and other impurities in the potter’s clay that prevents the potter from making a perfect vessel.   If a potter were to allow the impurities and the sticks and stones to remain in the clay, he might be able to make a vessel, but that vessel would surely be marred and would surely explode in the flames of the potter’s furnace.  The resulting shards would be good for nothing except the trash pile.  Like the sticks and stones and other impurities in the clay, man’s sin needs to be removed so God can mold and shape us into  a vessel that can be used for Him.

Jeremiah told how the “…clay was marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it again another vessel…” Being born with sin the first time we need to be forgiven and re-made, so Jesus said “Ye must be born again” (John 3:3). It is through this re-birth that we are like re-made clay vessels,  which are pleasing to God.  Once we are these “new creatures” we can have fellowship with God and know the true purpose and meaning of life.

The similarities between the act of creating a pot on the potter’s wheel and the relationship between the Believer and God are endless.   As clay needs to be washed and purified, sinful man also needs to be washed and purified before we can join God in Heaven.  God uses two elements to “clean up”, “purify” the sinner.  The Word of God, the Bible is like the water that cleanses the potter’s clay. God uses His word to cleanse people”…with the washing of water by the word,” (Ephesians 5:26).  Jesus said: “Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken onto you.” (John 15:3) God also washes our sin away with the Blood of Jesus. “…Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood, (Rev.1: 5)

In order for the potter to create a perfect vessel, he will first wash the clay and remove all impurities.  Slamming the clay on the wedging board and kneading it in a specific way the potter causes the clay to go through a multitude of “trials and tribulations” thereby preparing the clay for things to come.  The act of centering the purified, washed, cleaned and wedged clay on the wheel can be compared to God’s way of allowing us to be exposed to all kinds of trials and tribulations, thereby nudging us ever closer to Him.  So it is with centering: a little nudge here, a little nudge there and before one is even aware of it the clay is centered and ready to be shaped into a vessel that can be used. The hard part, for both the potter and the Christian is to remain centered and focused so that God can do His thing in our life.

In closing,  the process in becoming a vessel that can be used by God is a lifelong process. At no time in our life do we become “sinless and perfect”.  Just forgiven. The debt owed by our sin is paid through His death and the shedding of His blood on the cross.  God continues to work the clay that is our lives.  He continues to work out the imperfections and failures that we deal with everyday.   In order to create the perfect vessel, the clay has to be just right, it has to be centered and has to respond properly to the potter’s sensitive hands.   We should compare the act of “centering” to the act of surrendering one ‘s self to God.

The lessons learned from my failure in art class in 1977 are still with me today.  Probably one of the greatest lessons is this… that when my clay was destroyed in the kiln all those years ago, it was over.  I could not fix it.  I could not salvage anything from it.  I would not get a second chance in fixing it.  Man is a lot like this.  When we as Christians fail in our lives,  most times other Christians do not give another person a second chance to allow God to re-work and re-mold the failed Believer.  They are quick to dispose of the broken shards of clay that are on the floor.   What I have learned is that God is all about second chances in this life.  He can take the “marred clay” and the broken shards of clay  that is our lives and shape and mold it and if we fail, He will continue to work it, re-mold it and shape it until we are called home to heaven.

As a Christian who has failed in his life, I am comforted to know that one day I will be made “perfect” when I go home to be with Him in heaven.  My prayer is that one day before I get called home to be with Him, I will be able to be a vessel that is worthy to be used again.  While I am waiting, I will place my life in the hands of the Potter…willing to be molded, re-worked and shaped into a vessel that is pleasing to Him.

I’m Learning… that I Can Change and So Can You.

Maybe it’s just me…but as  I close in on the anniversary of writing this blog, I am reminded of the fact that this little project has taught me much more than I have shared to those of you that have been gracious and patient enough to read my ramblings.

It is a good thing that I love to write.  Because once upon a time, I loved to teach.   I still love to teach but I am not able to teach like I would like to anymore and I have not been able to express myself that way.  So,  I have these outlets, like this blog as a way to accomplish my desire to express my thoughts and perspective.  It is really the only way of expression that I can really do.  With that in mind, it is evident to me that I have not posted to this blog as much as I have written.  I have written hundreds of postings and stories that are part of my private blog.  For those of you that do not know, I have a private blog and those writings will be shared with my family and close friends some where along the line after the Lord calls me home.

However, I have shared with you some stories and some of my political views just as a way of expression.   It has been fun and I will continue to post them on this site until people quit reading them.  My goal is to have 15,000 hits before my one year anniversary on September 3rd.  I am currently at 14, 322…so I still have an outside shot.  There is no loss in not making that goal, because at the end of the day, this is just a fun project that keeps me busy.

More importantly, this project has taught me a lot.  Try sitting down and disciplining yourself to write everyday about things that make up who you are.  Stories from the past that shaped you.  Try to write about the things that bother you and try to put into words solutions for those that read your ramblings. Tell a story about someone that has inspired you or try to coherently share your perspective.   Sounds easy…but it has been difficult to do.  I have been through a time period when I simply could not put a word down on paper.  Writer’s block is real and I have experienced it firsthand.   Nothing is as frustrating as when you have to come up with something to write about and your mind is a blank.

So today, as I sat down to write in my private blog, I realized that I have learned so much over the past year about myself.  Having to express myself (via the pen) has made me face some of my biggest personal weaknesses.  It also has taught me some valuable lessons that I thought I already knew but never really had to practice them in my life.  It has been one of the best things that I have ever been a part of.

With that in mind, I am going to list (not in any particular order and certainly not a complete listing) things that I am learning in my life.  These statements that I post are things that I am learning.  They have changed me or at least, made me a better person today than I was a year ago.  I plan on taking each one of these points and write separate postings for each one.  If you will, like a chapter in a book for each one.

For the record, these will also be posted in my personal blog as notes to pass on to my children and grandchildren.

Here is what I am learning…

  • That I can do something in a instant that will bring me heartache for life.
  • I can learn from a bad experience.  It can actually result in “good” things.  It is up to me to determine how I am going to deal with the bad experience.
  • To not take myself so seriously.  In life, on the job and in a marriage,  a good sense of humor is money in the bank.
  • Try to slow down more and enjoy the trip that life brings.
  • My bitterness never accomplished anything.  Even though I was really good at it.
  • I need to be the best “forgiver” I know.
  • Good intentions never excuse offense.
  • Forgiveness accomplishes all of it’s goals.  It never fails.  I just know I’m not very good at it.
  • Trust is something that takes a lifetime to build and mere seconds to destroy.
  • Say words of love to those in your life.  I have learned that it may be the last time I see them and get the chance to say them.
  • I shouldn’t burn bridges or jump off the cliff.  Things change and I should learn not to react.
  • I wish I was the man I am today…25 years ago.
  • That I don’t fail when I lose…I fail when I quit.
  • How much Money I make is the worst way to keep score in life.
  • Success is measured by my relationships, not cars, homes or bank accounts.
  • That having money is not nearly as much fun as I thought it would be when I didn’t have any.
  • Money buys less than what I thought.
  • I cannot make anyone love me…forgive me or accept me.  God does this unconditionally.
  • Degrees, credentials and awards mean far less than I thought they would.
  • Regret is the only emotion I cannot do anything about.
  • That tears are nothing I need to be ashamed of.
  • God is all about second chances…people are not.
  • It happened to me…it can happen to you.  There are no guarantees, except forgiveness and salvation through Jesus Christ.
  • It was easy to have friends when I did what they they wanted me to do.
  • My true friends are those that stood next to me when I failed.  So look around after the failure… most of the time it is just your family left to help you pick up the pieces.
  • I need to keep my promises.
  • Christian talk is cheap.  It is easy to do right and live for the Lord in other peoples eyes when all they have to evaluate me are my words.  Actions speak louder than words.
  • Never be afraid to say I am sorry.
  • No Legacy is as rich as a Legacy of Honesty.

So in the end… I have changed and I think you can change too.

But then again, maybe it’s just me.

The Legacy of Keith Green

Maybe it’s just me…
but I have been drawn again to the music of Keith Green.

For those of you that do not know, or may have forgotten.

Keith Green (October 21, 1953) was a Contemporary Christian Music artist originally from Sheepshead Bay, New York. He had a Jewish background, but he grew up reading the New Testament. He called it “an odd combination” that left him open minded but deeply unsatisfied. His journey in life led him to drugs, South Asian mysticism, and “free love.” After experiencing what he described as a “bad trip,” he abandoned drug use and became bitter towards philosophy and theology in general. He would later state, however, that in the midst of all his skepticism, he felt that God “broke through [his] calloused heart,” and he became a born-again Christian.

More than the music, his message inspired me to commit my life to follow Christ.  Apart from my relationship with the Lord, I am not sure there has been a greater influence that challenged me to live for Christ.

Keith Green died on July 28, 1982, when the Cessna 414 leased by Last Days Ministries crashed after takeoff from the private airstrip on his property. The small two-engine plane was carrying eleven passengers and the pilot, Don Burmeister, for an aerial tour of the property and the surrounding area. Green and two of his children, three year old Josiah, and two year old Bethany, were on board the plane, along with visiting missionaries John and Dede Smalley and their six children. All aboard the seven-seat aircraft were killed.

I struggle, even after all these years, trying to figure out why a pilot would allow 12 people aboard a plane designed for 7.  I also struggle in trying to understand why God would take a man that had such a great ministry and influence on so many people.  These will be some of the questions that I would like to ask when I get to heaven.

Just before he died, I had the opportunity to see him in concert…concert is a strong word because it was more like a revival service.   I think he preached more than he sang.   It was great.  The challenge he gave to all of us back then is the same as today…”don’t fall asleep in the light” …make sure you fulfill what God has asked you to be for Him…and that is a witness.

I remember him saying, “I repent of ever having recorded one single song, and ever having performed one concert, if my music, and more importantly, my life has not provoked you into committing your heart more completely to Jesus!”

Indeed his music and ministry did just that.

If you open your mind and heart to Keith’s message…maybe…just maybe…God’s Love will break through to your heart as well. I hope you catch that message as you research his life…

The bottom line is…if you have not discovered his music and ministry, please do so.  If you do remember him, you can re-discover it today as well.  The link is www.lastdaysministries.org.

In closing… if for nothing else, please watch this video… You’ll be glad you did.

But then again, maybe it’s just me..