Life has been interesting for the past several months.
I had surgery and was off work for a month or so. It was the longest time I was off work since I graduated from college. I thought I was going to be able to finish a project I have been writing. I had been so inspired to write about growing up in a small town in Ohio. Try to write short stories about those experiences and maybe one day put them together in book form for my grand kids to read one day.
It sounds so selfish and self-serving when I put that desire into words.
Truth is… I just have not been able to write.
Several times I was inspired but couldn’t bring myself to face the keys.
I have been distracted by other things. Over things I have no control.
Elections, politics, rumors, marches, riots, hateful rhetoric, families fighting amongst each other and people posting things just to stir things up on social media.
Truth is… people really believe that all of this stuff is new. It isn’t.
I am old enough to remember the late 1960’s. Civil unrest… marches, riots on college campuses, racial wars and division, scandals, war in Vietnam, environmental groups that told us that we would no longer exist by the mid-eighties, Communism would over-take us by 1976 and if not, we would be wiped out by Russia’s nuclear bombs. Fear was rampant.
Flash forward 40 years and history is repeating itself. None of this is new.
Truth is… the biggest difference is social media. Instant postings of fear or support for individual preferences has caused so much division.
Yes… elections have consequences but those consequences are issues I cannot control.
Truth is… it is what it is… whether I like it or not.
Whatever those consequences are should point me to trust and deepen my faith in my God. He is the one that is in control and the results from this election are not surprises to Him.
Never-the-less, I have let a lot of what I see on social media get to me. It discouraged me and I let it affect me. I had to break away and un-follow and delete some friends and family.
Truth is… I have not posted who I supported in the election nor have I attacked anyone for their political perspective. All I have said was that it is futile to post pro-Trump or anti-Trump posts because it changes nothing. I feel that posting political things on social media really changes nothing and all that does is cause division among friends and family.
Truth is… I still feel that way.
So many people are so angry and hateful. Some of these people have not had an actual conversation with me in years, yet they attacked me like they know me and what I think.
Truth is… they don’t know me.
One of the things I was accused of being was a hypocrite. Acting one way in real life and then acting like a spiritual giant by what I wrote. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
Truth is… I am keenly aware of my failures.
I am aware of who I am. I’m not always the person that I want to be or should be. I slip, I fall, I make mistakes, and do things that I shouldn’t. My thoughts are not always the best, my words don’t always speak life, but I do thank God His mercies are new every morning.
Truth is… my failures are just that, my failures. I will answer for them. I write about them. I always have. I also write about the grace of God. I write about forgiveness. I write about my beliefs. I write and share my beliefs so you’ll know where I am coming from in any given situation, not in an attempt to force them down your throats because I believe “I am right and you are wrong.”
Truth is… I’m not going to apologize for my relationship with the Lord. He knows me. He knows my failures. And while I answer to only One person for how I live my life, I have no desire to offend the masses in my process of living or writing.
I try to share what the Lord puts on my heart to write and I keep the rest of it to myself, which is why I do not post on a daily or even a weekly basis.
Truth is… it’s easy to focus on the negative.
This morning, I was thinking about all of the things I wish were different about me, and although I believe it’s a good thing to be aware of our shortcomings and to bring them to God, it also occurred to me that if my focus is there too often, it can cause me to lose sight of the things in my life to be grateful for.
Truth is… I am working on turning my gaze to the blessings in my life. When I begin to think about those blessings, I realize that I didn’t do anything to deserve them. They are just gifts God chose to give me.
Truth is… it is the same with His gift of salvation. Salvation is not something we can earn; God only asks that we believe in His Son. It is something God extended to us because He loves us and wants to be in relationship with us.
Truth is… I do not claim or even secretly believe to know it all when it comes to living for the Lord. I am simply sharing with you how He’s leading me in the hope that it will encourage you and/or maybe you have some words of encouragement for me.
So friends, please, know that when I write I am sharing from my heart. I desire to be real with you about the struggles and the joy I find on this journey of life.
Even more so, it is about the faithfulness of God in the midst of it all.
Truth is… to me, that is what it means to be a part of the body of Christ.