Can I be honest with you?
The very last thing I want to do right now is write an inspirational post about finding your “passion”.
About the only thing I feel passionate about is being tired.
I’ve been a little cranky and sad for a few days for no good reason. I’m behind on some writing on my next book that I wished I had finished.
So, tonight I face this blank page.
I know I’m meant to fill it with encouraging words that I just don’t have today.
Nothing creates burnout faster than losing your passion.
I guess I could lie to you.
I could put on a happy face and borrow from inspiration I’ve felt at another time. I could pull out and re-write an old article I wrote and love, or I could repeat some version of what someone else has said. I could paint you a rainbow and hide the part of me I don’t want to give voice to. I could suppress what I’m feeling.
Or I could be a real person.
I don’t know about you, but sometimes I sure wish I could see the cracks in the people around me – especially those who are out in front, claiming to have the answers I need.
Sometimes I think the best thing they could do is admit that taking their own advice isn’t always easy.
How refreshing it would be to see a break in their relentless smiles for a moment. I think it would help me more to know that they struggle sometimes than to hear their “3 Steps For Getting Over Your Problems”.
So here I am – facing my own “problem”. I am struggling to find the passion I normally have about writing. I will admit that taking my own advice isn’t easy.
The truth is… I know the right things to think and say. I know what I’m supposed to do. I understand what’s good for me. But the truth is, right now, I just don’t want to do it.
Now, I’m not one to embrace a funk for long. I’ll get past this quickly – probably even by the time I post this. And because I know that, I was really tempted to lie to you and to hide from you. But if I share the best of me with you, if I ask you to rally around my words, if I call you to boldness and authenticity, then it feels right to be bold and authentic in return… even when I don’t want to be.
So what’s the lesson here?
Well… maybe there doesn’t need to be one. Maybe it’s enough just to drop the facade with one another, to admit that we don’t always wanna practice what we preach. But I started this post privately asking myself, “How do I do this when nothing in me wants to?”.
And I think that maybe I’ve stumbled onto 3 steps, whether I wanted to or not.
What do you do when you can’t find your “passion”?
Step 1 – Be a real person. Put away your rainbow and admit your weakness.
Step 2 – Allow yourself the freedom to gripe for a moment. You don’t have to turn in your optimist card, and you just might do some good in the process.
Step 3 – That thing you want to punt? Go do it anyway.
Life is harder sometimes than we let on.
It gets especially tough if you’re daring to do something big and bold.
Sometimes, the pressure to perform perfectly will shut you down. When it does, we need to remind ourselves to refer to steps 1-3 above.
And when we’re done, we need to go take a walk with someone we love… and find our smile again and maybe we’ll find our “passion” once again.